Hush

I need room,

My brain rattles my skull with white noise,

Basket case conversations, wastepaper words,

I’m tangled in a creative knot,

Trying to unravel, unwind,

My days used to have a beginning and an end,

Now I can’t recognise either,

The markers for awake and sleep keep shifting,

Weeks bleed into each other around here.

 

I’m tethered to this Wi-Fi lifeline seven long days a week,

It offers me life signs from cyberspace,

Where everyone has their finger on the pulse,

Checking they’re still alive,

It makes my head hurt, and destroys my vision,

Inward and outward,

Still, I’m hooked like a hungry fish,

The continues to be surprised at being reeled in,

Time and time again.

 

I need hush,

Shush,

Silence,

Nothing.

 

I need nothing at all; to inspire me,

Switch off, disconnect,

Breathe and reflect on nothing,

A deep concentration of nothing,

I drift out into a sea of nothingness,

Until I am nothing, going nowhere, thinking nothing,

Until something comes along out of the blue and stops me,

From drowning in the wonderful joy of absolutely nothing.

 

Something worth living for,

Something that reminds me I’m alive,

Something that makes me smile,

Something to unravel me.

 

Like those days when we laughed and danced,

Campfires and guitars,

Those nights when we talked till we lost track of time,

Like those years when everything filled our eyes with wonder,

Hopscotch and skipping ropes,

Ice-cream and bubble-gum,

Discos and celebrations,

Family, friends-

When the human touch meant something.

 

Shush,

Hush,

Silence,

Let me remember you.

 

No-one Can Hear Your Heartbeat

No-one can hear you talking girl,

They have their own dialogues,

No-one can hear you breathing,

No-one can hear your heartbeat,

No-one except you,

You stand on the periphery of the social circle.

 

Your sob story sinks you to the lowest rank,

We only want the good news today, but,

Your happiness is too loud to deserve airtime,

Check in some other day,

Your world is on the other side of the screen,

Not here in a social media dream,

Go away, entertain yourself,

Go away and fuck yourself,

But do something productive.

 

No-one can hear you talking kid,

We’re all talking to ourselves,

We’re all talking about ourselves,

Don’t have time for anyone else,

I like your funny picture,

I glanced at it between rants,

I smiled at your meaningful meme,

On my way to my inbox…cynically

 

-Hmm no reply

 

I saw you posted music videos,

But I don’t know the band,

So, I won’t listen to it,

I won’t waste my time,

It’s not Ed Sheeran,

No-one can hear you talking mate,

No-one can hear you scream,

No-one cares when you’re cut up,

On the other side of the screen.

 

We can switch you off, report,

Block your updates,

We get to pick and choose the content,

We can edit conversations, delete our guilt,

We can deny everything,

Claim we missed your news,

No-one hears your heartbeat stop,

No-one here can hear a pin drop.

 

The chatter is too loud,

The news feed clouds the view,

No-one can hear you weeping babe,

No-one except you,

This is nothing personal,

We hope you understand,

We love you, but we just don’t care,

We just don’t care.